accumulate:–verb (used with object)

1.	to gather or collect, often in gradual degrees; heap up: to accumulate wealth.

so i'm finally moving. you didn't know i was going anywhere did you? that's because i haven't posted in a while and have been running around like mad trying to get things done or have been too wiped and/or lazy to update. here's the scoop:

i have a job!

i have an apartment!

it comes with a washer and dryer!

i have stuff for my kitchen!

i have hardly any furniture but i do have a really nice piano!

i'm moving in tomorrow!

i can't wait to get things all settled into their nooks and cabinets. my only concern is that i'll try to do too much too fast. like buy a couch and a dining set and a toaster oven and paint the walls (i still want red but i'm reconsidering) and to have a garden on my little balcony. to have rooms that have style without being too matchy matchy, instead of just random stuff that doesn't have any style or match for that matter like i have now.

the problem is i have this image in my head where i have colored walls with lots of artwork on them and comfortable furniture and candles and christmas lights and curtains and everything cozy and the truth is...it's all a long way off. my best friend's mom once told her that it took her 20 years to get their house looking the way she wanted it (it's amazing btw). so my new mantra has become "you have to accumulate your life". i'm not just going to go out and buy something uninteresting that i don't absolutely love just because i want to have things NOW. i can wait. i can search for that perfect painting or that couch i adore or that wall color that will make me feel better after a long day. and better yet, all of my new "stuff" will hopefully have a story or a memory attached to it, not just a "yeah i got that at walmart". living life in the now is hard but knowing that i'm going to accumulate life as it comes makes everything worth it.