Lent Day 20: Big Questions, Small Thoughts

Today was a long day. A hard day, for some reason. Nothing particularly awful happened at work. But I came home, took a nap, and have thought about nothing else for the past hours since waking up except finding another job, another place, finding something that makes me not feel so drained and frustrated.

For a few years now I've wanted to be a Montessori teacher. It requires it's own training and that takes time and money. So I'm working, I'm saving, and I generally feel like I'm on a hamster wheel, both at work and in the financial department.

It brings the question to mind: where is happiness found?

I know a lot of people who would say you should live for God and others. (Go for the Bronze) but while that is true I think that God put a lot of things in us that we deny because we think it pleases Him if we're not enjoying stuff.

I'm going to ponder this question and these thoughts for a while longer and post each day on a new topic. Some ideas include:

Faith

Love

Comfort

Accumulation

Seeing the World

Learning

Creativity

Work

Rest

Beauty

Moderation

Service

Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Life is more than surviving. A friend recently told me, we're not just here to breathe in and out, you've got to enjoy the hell out of it! I think he was very right. Liberty, a rusty word for freedom. Freedom to live your life as you want to. Most of us are wasting that freedom, either because what we want is so base, or because we don't go after what it is we truly want. The pursuit of happiness. Does anyone know what that really mean? What it would take to get it?

I do know one thing though. That a life lived in search of good is a good life.

Shalom